how to be soulful (and always ache) by PenToThePage, literature
Literature
how to be soulful (and always ache)
kiss with your eyes open because eyelashes sprouting out of the blue-pink of eyelids will test the powdery depths of your heart and make you forget
stand half in half out the door, light pouring over your body
stand in a white button up and tube socks and hold the hand of someone you love (you will get sweaty and embarrassed)
stand outside and watch the stars flicker
cry because of light pollution and because you're small and that hurts you
ache at the sight of fake flowers, and self conscious 12 year olds and the feeling of only having one body
document your sadness because maybe it'll make you ache less
it won't
pay attention in che
concave and heavy breathing
secrets told with uneasy
eyes
your ghost
tastes milky and sweet
and she knows more about
the colour of my soul
than you ever could
i would trace your outlines
with my fingertips
and memorize you
if you ever stayed the same
instead i leave feverish fingertips
on your glass insides
doing my best to know you
off by heart
but you are tumultuous
and ever-changing
one day you are sweet
and soft
flowery with a saccharine
scent
honeyed eyes and heart
dipped in something subtle and
subdued
the next you are waves
and drowning with my lungs
filling with salt
seaweed wrapping around my
wrists
you are drowning me
and saving me at the same time
and i am in love with the way
that you make my throat burn
and the way that you
change
i used to say i was fire
and there was no way you
could put me out
but i learned that you
were the rain
and i was drowning
beautifully
lungs seizing
with poetic pleasure
i will nibble the milk skin
of your thighs
and leave nebulous bruises
deep in your flesh
i will kiss the sweet undersides
of your arms
and leave bright red crescents
on your back
i will make you mine
how to be soulful (and always ache) by PenToThePage, literature
Literature
how to be soulful (and always ache)
kiss with your eyes open because eyelashes sprouting out of the blue-pink of eyelids will test the powdery depths of your heart and make you forget
stand half in half out the door, light pouring over your body
stand in a white button up and tube socks and hold the hand of someone you love (you will get sweaty and embarrassed)
stand outside and watch the stars flicker
cry because of light pollution and because you're small and that hurts you
ache at the sight of fake flowers, and self conscious 12 year olds and the feeling of only having one body
document your sadness because maybe it'll make you ache less
it won't
pay attention in che
concave and heavy breathing
secrets told with uneasy
eyes
your ghost
tastes milky and sweet
and she knows more about
the colour of my soul
than you ever could
i would trace your outlines
with my fingertips
and memorize you
if you ever stayed the same
instead i leave feverish fingertips
on your glass insides
doing my best to know you
off by heart
but you are tumultuous
and ever-changing
one day you are sweet
and soft
flowery with a saccharine
scent
honeyed eyes and heart
dipped in something subtle and
subdued
the next you are waves
and drowning with my lungs
filling with salt
seaweed wrapping around my
wrists
you are drowning me
and saving me at the same time
and i am in love with the way
that you make my throat burn
and the way that you
change
i used to say i was fire
and there was no way you
could put me out
but i learned that you
were the rain
and i was drowning
beautifully
lungs seizing
with poetic pleasure
i will nibble the milk skin
of your thighs
and leave nebulous bruises
deep in your flesh
i will kiss the sweet undersides
of your arms
and leave bright red crescents
on your back
i will make you mine
THE BEST WAY TO KILL YOURSELF by eloquence-fair, literature
Literature
THE BEST WAY TO KILL YOURSELF
this is a poem for you.
i am writing this poem
because i need to be
honest with you
because in new york city you said
you thought you were in love
with me and i loved that that you
told me even if you
were not sure but i said
it was okay.
but i need you to know that
i am a terribly sad person
and that i write these
terrible sad poems
and that
i'm sad because
i don't think you realize
and i need you to realize
that even if i am not there,
with you,
i am still here,
and i might be sad or eating
lunch or researching
"THE BEST WAY TO KILL YOURSELF"
or i might just be reading a
good book, and i need you to
realiz
if you are receiving this manual, i must say
you are somewhat stupid and you do not
know what you are getting yourself into
but i assume i've told you that already
to love me, you should know:
i will fall apart, i promise
you will have to pick up the pieces
not sweep them under the carpet,
pretending i was never there
pick them up gently and piece me together
if you say that you love me, be sure i love you
i just might not say it because
if i do, i will fall too fast and
i know that i will hurt you and myself
i will definitely need you to tell me
to love myself because i don't and you
should tell me i'm pretty, even though
i
lover boy, don't even try to tell me there's anything in the world burning brighter than us tonight,
with your knee bent halfway over that fence and my smile entwined in your collarbones.
there were dead birds and fragile things hanging on the clothesline. you liked to look at them because it made you feel more secure; less like scraps of fabric and snips or newspapers tied loosely with dental floss. so you hung ribcages and tea cups and our love on the clothesline because fragile things made you feel less alone.
"I'm not afraid of dying; I'm afraid of leaving." you whispered to the stars. the air grew heavy. "I don't like the idea that this is all there is, because there's so much more I want to be. I want to be beautiful."
I was always more afraid of living, because living meant that there were no excuses. I agreed, though
you and i are the same. by PenToThePage, literature
Literature
you and i are the same.
We are all made up of the same things. protons and neutrons and electrons make up everyone; our mass is 65% oxygen. it's 0.002% silicon and 0.00000000000000001% radium. the saxophonist wailing in the underground world of the new york subway, the single mother of two, the starving artist sitting in a booth at a café, listening to that band you've never heard of. we are all so different, but we are the same. we all have 206 bones. we are different, our hearts in varying conditions. we are all the same, and we can mend them together.
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things are becoming too much for me.
all i do is write poems and eat food that's designed for children.
i'm so tired and everything in my life is really emotionally taxing.
i'm trying, i am.
i hope you are all doing well! i had a really bad flu on christmas day but otherwise things have been really good this past week.
i'd say my new year's resolution should be read more, as it normally is, but i should actually probably read less and try making friends... i don't know. but i will probably end up reading more.
i hope all of your holidays were wonderful and bright and cozy and happy and i wish you the best for the new year!
you are a total doll <3 keep writing love, and take care of yourself. Dont ever let it go to the point where it feels like the world rests on your sholders.